Baby Piper Update

My brother sent this outfit today. What am I going to do with it?

Today I am 14+3! This week I have been off for Fall Break. I got a few things done around the house. The most important one was cleaning out the closet in my bedroom. I have finally decided that the time was right to collect a few items that my friends have had put up for me. I didn’t want to have any possession of anything baby related bc well…..you know…anxiety will do that to you. But, it’s been a good productive week! I got that done and we went through some of the little girl clothes. I still have a ton to sort. I am not an organized person by nature, but I’m going to try my best to be better at that this time around.

I’ve been pinning like crazy on my Piper Pinterest board. So have my two best friends since we have a collaborated bored. I’m just going to go with a general pink/grey theme.

We are going to make her a Baby Nook in the corner of our room for awhile.

T.j. has been so involved this time around. When we were going through clothes the other day he came across a baby bikini and swore Piper would never wear anything like that. Lol

All in all I’m feeling great! Trying to get that gallon of water in each day. Let me tell you that is so tough! Even as hot as it’s been here. I saw my primary doctor on Monday and she said that dehydration could be the cause of my daily headaches. I’m trying, but I’m taking it one day at a time.

I go back to my ob next Tuesday. I need to look at my paperwork and find out what to expect at that appointment.

I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

Dear God,

I pray strongly for Baby Piper. That you will sustain her life to your perfect will, timing, and ways. I pray that you continue to keep me healthy during this pregnancy and that you continue to give me peace when my anxiety and fears randomly pop up. I’m so thankful for this baby and I love you!

I Really Do Know How Blessed I Am!

I’d just like to set the record straight for myself. I know I’ve come off as ungrateful these past few weeks. Since learning of this pregnancy I’ve had a hard time accepting the congrats that comes along with it. I know so many people that would love to be in the position that I’m in. They would do anything for the chance to bring new life in this world. It’s hard for me to explain my feelings. I know without a doubt that I want this child. I know that even though it wasnt my plan, that the plan God has for me is so much greater. I guess my biggest debate is that I never wanted to face pregnancy loss again. I never wanted to have the fear that something isn’t right, or that I cant get excited about it bc of the possible future. I know in my heart that I cant live my life in fear. I know that God is in control of my future and all my dreams. It’s my mind that needs convincing.

I haven’t felt sick this whole time, other than feeling tired. And instead of just living my best life, I’m worried that the baby isn’t growing bc of my lack of symptoms.

I know to those around me it makes no sense.

I know that I’ve had a month to let this all settle in. And it really has! I’ve had three ultrasounds and each one has been perfect with a good strong heart beat.

I just want my friends out there that want a baby so bad that you can taste, just know that I’m not being ungrateful.

I never ever saw myself mothering another little human. The first one God gave me was is so perfectly amazing and healthy that I feel selfish longing for another one. I may have said this before, but it’s so ironic how I didnt even know i wanted another baby. But God did, and he gave me my hearts hidden desire. Forgive me if I’ve upset anyone with my negativity along the way. I’m still getting use to this idea. I know I’ll be fine and I’m trusting this baby will be just as perfect as Eli. I trusting that our Father will allow the remander of this pregnancy to be uneventful and healthy. I’m trusting that this one will be my husbands dream come true. The little girl he has wanted forever. Until I feel the writing bug again.

A Different Kind of Update.

Hello there my long lost WordPress family! As most of you know around this time I come on to give you all my weight loss update for the month. Well this month took a whole different turn.

To catch you up, last month I had lost 42 pounds and was living my best life. Me and Keto were the best of friends and we often invited Intermittent fasting to join in on our fun. In all I ended up losing 45 pounds. I was super proud of myself and had so many plans to keep going and reaching all of my fitness and weight loss goals! But God had other plans!

On Aug. 5, 2019 I found out that I was 5 weeks pregnant with my 2nd child. Yes, you read that right. Here I am about to be 37 in a few weeks, in the best shape of my adult life and bam!!! Right in the kisser! Let me remind you that by the time this baby is born, my 1st sweet baby boy will be 14 years old!! Lol.

I’m not going to lie, for the first whole week after I found out I was kinda devastated. How was I going to go through this again after having a miscarriage in 2004, and then having the most miserable pregnancy experience with Elijah. I had so many things j wanted to accomplish, one was losing 100 pounds.

If you knew me you would know my stance on my contentment of having an only child. You can look back at my blog posts and see that I’ve written at least one post about it.

Here I am now, 7 weeks and 2 days along the way. I’m finally coming around to the Idea that I’m going to be a Mommy again…at 37. My husband and son have both been over the moon the whole time! I felt at one time that I was the only person on the face of this earth that wasnt feeling this life altering situation.

My fears and anxieties have been at all time highs these last few weeks. All i could think about was the heart break i went through when I lost my first baby. I’ve been having flashbacks of September 21, 2004, and I had terrible cramps all day while I was at work. Before the end of my shift I went to the bathroom and that’s where I discovered the start of the worst day of my life. I ended up having a d&c, and afterwards my doctor came in and told me that although I was 13 weeks along, my baby had not formed past week 2. In his exact words, “There was no baby, just tissue.” Like that was supposed to make me feel better.

Come to find out i have a rare blood type, O-, as well as the Rh factor. This is a condition in which my blood and the baby’s blood doesn’t mix. Therefore my cells thought that the baby was a foreign body and attacked it, causing my body to abort it naturally.

I spent a year after hating public places bc people would come up and ask me how the baby was, not knowing I had lost it, and hating anyone that was pregnant or had a baby. It wasnt fair that I had fallen in love with this baby I thought I was carrying inside of me, only to have it taken away. And right down the road there was a 14 year old girl having a baby the same day I was due.

These are the thoughts that have been going through my head, the negative Nancy ones. The kind that I know the devil has been working over time to put there. Not the good, positive ones that come from God above.

I woke up this past Saturday and decided no more devil! I was going to do my best to enjoy this pregnancy bc I know it will be my last. So from then on out I have been determined to keep positive biblical thoughts in my heart and mind. I know that even though my plans will not belived out, that Gods plans are always perfect. So here goes nothing!!

LilBear Jones due April 6th 2020!

❤ LaBranda

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