This was the girl I was over 20 years ago. I regret not loving this girl. I’m ashamed that I didnt enjoy this body when I had it. If you knew this girl, you know that she always wore baggy boy clothes to hide her body. She didnt know how to handle her eating disorder. She didn’t have all the love and support from all the people she does now. She didnt feel loved, but she loved too much, too hard. Even though she is smiling, in most of these pictures her heart was broken. She was a people pleaser, and she said sorry for things that were not her fault. She still does that!
Now, over 20 years later, she is a wife, a mother, and a teacher. She finally feels true unblemished love. She wears her heart on her sleeve still. She has learned how to say no, most of the time. She has learned that she is worth it. Worth the time, worth the money, worth the sweat and tears it takes to find herself again. Actually, no, to find herself for the 1st time in her entire life.
Her Husband loves her no matter what. He encourages her in his own way. He doesn’t care what she does or doesn’t do to meet her goals, as long as she is happy.
The fact the she doesn’t think her son is ashamed of her, gives her strength to carry herself through one more fast, one more workout, and one more rough day.
This girl is the same girl, yet different in all the positive ways! Not only will she make her friends and loved ones proud, most importantly she will make HERSELF proud. LaBranda Raye Finley Jones, I love you so much and I’m still fighting for you! Let’s knock out these goals!!