Tonight, my brain is slowly dying. It’s Monday and work was crazy with meetings and kids that thought today was their first day of school. I had to leave for a couple of hours and go to a meeting and when I came back, they were bouncing off the walls. I have a new temporary full-time sub. Her name is Mrs. Harrison. She is super sweet, but quiet and not much of a disciplinarian. This is going to be an interesting month to say the least.
Today I did something that I have always thought about doing but have never had the courage to do because I was worried that when I got there, I would be told there is nothing wrong with me and to get over it. I went and seen a therapist for the first time. It was nice telling someone who is out of the equation of my everyday life, my thought and feelings, my struggles, my goals. The way I feel so overwhelmed between work, school, my toddler and my teenager, and throw in a husband and a house to manage and you have the recipe for stress overload. Thats me all day long. One thing I learned through all of this is that you have to have gratitude every day. There is something we can be grateful each day. I am going to try and find a way to make time for more posts every few days on what I am thankful for in that day.
Today I am grateful that the meeting I had with my bosses today ended up being more positive than negative. That they are there to guide me and to keep me from being so stressed. But that I have to tell them when I am feeling that way. I am also grateful that I had the courage to go to a therapist, and that I have the opportunity to practice mindfulness each day.
